Forgetting is my Super Power

If you were a Super Hero what would your power be? I've always wanted to orb place to place or snap my fingers and make things appear lol. That's pretty cool, right? Well because I'm special, as my son calls it, my superpower happens to be forgetting. Last week I had a doctor's appointment at 9:45 so I had to make sure I got a few things done first. I woke my daughter up at 6 am and turned my backyard sprinklers on. After I got my 2 little kids ready for school, I dropped them off and came back to take care of my dogs. My husband was a bit under the weather so I made him some tea and me and a cup of coffee. Being epileptic, I'm not all that great anymore at multitasking so I'm keeping my eye on the clock. The time starts to move faster or something so at this point, I'm power walking to the bedroom. We all know running isn't safe lol. I got dressed, did my hair, quickly made my eyebrows look like sisters, and stuffed my purse. my alarm for my meds went off and I ignored it. I figured I'd take them on my way out. Ask me right now if I took them on my way out....... ugh. Now at this point, I'm in the car finding directions with 15 minutes to spare. If you know me, you know I don't know how to get anywhere if it's more than 15 minutes away lol. It's not my fault. I blame my parents, I was a very sheltered child. I also blame my husband, he drives everywhere. By the time I was 15 mins away

from the house I realized I hadn't taken my medicine and I was too far to turn around. I texted my husband and he was not happy. I was already going through a silent panic attack though so I don't him don't make me feel worse. The anxiety in my chest was at a 10 and I was trying my best to ease it. I knew for a fact myself that I would be fine. That I would go to this doctor's appointment, go home, take my meds, and be ok. But the way anxiety and the brain works is so crazy. They will make you feel like you are going insane. Everything in my brain made me feel like I was going to have a seizure and that I made a huge mistake when I honestly knew better. My chest was tight and my heart was racing. I did the one thing I knew that would calm my mind: turn my favorite artist on and sing my heart out. I had to find a way to take my mind off what I knew wouldn't be a big deal. I'm singing and eventually, my mind calms and my heart loosens in my chest; I can breathe again. I get to my appointment and all goes well. My ride home was a little better. I made a few stops to get my children some treats, got home, and took my medicine. The whole anxiety fiasco is over, but I'm left-winded and exhausted. The emotions that your body will take you through can tire you out. It's like feeling everything at one time and not being able to shut it off.

I made a medicine dosage pack and put it in my wallet just in case that happens again and I'm out. I put only my seizure medicine in there so I'll have what I need no matter if it's morning or night. No, all Super Powers are wanted, but I'm living with mine. My kids remind me of things I need to sign every day until I sign them. They tape things to my computer so I can remember what I need to do for them. My husband still says looks at me crazy because I can't remember half of the things that he tells me, but guess what??

I'm still SEIZURE FREE AND IT'S BEEN 8 MONTHS!!!! So yes, the journey might be a little crazy, but we are making it and surviving. It's hard to remember a lot of things at once and manage a household. I give a lot of credit to my family, especially my niece because she's my biggest helper when my husband is working and away. I joke with her and tell her she's so mean to me, but honestly, she's been the one to remind me to take my medicine a lot because I forget sometimes and turn my alarm off when I'm in the middle of cooking or working on an order. My girl is my lifeline.


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